The Intangible Problem!

People have so many different problems each day. Some of them were kept realizing on it or upon reaching how it does happened. Problems, somehow are mean and justified. It sometimes captured our hearts. Maybe, it will eat us depending on how we laid with those.

INTANGIBLE PROBLEM? How? What are they? Which of those are called to those such intangibility. For me, I don’t know which is it and how it became intangible. (Weird?) I called as intangible because whenever you have these kind of problems, you rather go in silence and kept crying. Another thing was, it may rather a problem that no one knows even your own family. That you more pretentious that you are always fine and sound. But, the real thing was not! (..what a such!) You are always wearing a mask of happiness. A mask which is owned by yourself’s selfishness. A mask that creates a barrier of no where (..you are just a loner with blaming yourself…). In reality, problems were made and given to us to see if we can do it. It was given by God because He still knew that we can be a survivor.

In regards, this is a kind of a problem which I suffered without knowing that God already made a way on how I should solved and take me out of this darkness.

The most exciting when I had these problem was God already figured it out. God spoken to me even without knowing that He spoke to me several times. It is just an another way on how He helped me. Seeking and comforting with God is also like the way I have myself happy and kept smiling with my best friend. Even though there are so many ladders of reaching the root of such problems, he still finds me the better place to release it and dazzle my joys.

Now I know that God was already in me. He always know that there were also a part of a whole that makes me out of those TRICKY problem.

I’m so happy and I have no reason to questioned God whenever this intangibility came. God is always my provider! He putted those answer to whom I entrusted my another being. He was my best friend! 

Lead as you can!

I love myself, so that I can also love the others. When we do loving at everything, we can actually do what God wants to us.

Somehow, I was given the opportunity to be a leader. A leader that should share and love the crowd that He did also the same. Isang LEADER na ang gawin ay mamuno at unawain kung ano ang saloobin ng ibang tao. It is not easy for me to manage everything that a leader must do. There is a quote says that, “…having a great power, also having a great responsibility”.

At first, I don’t know where should I start and what am I supposed to do next. Usually, I’ve been cried and the crowd doesn’t know that I am crying. I cried because I can’t find myself where could I seek and asking myself, “Why did You choose me for that big role? I am unworthy! I have no identity of caring the crowd that You were given to me”. A voice came and said, “Your love will be the power and the needs of the crowd.” and I simply went into silence. It is just a voice that keeps me still and humid to start. I was sat down while thinking what goes next. The voice made me smiled and was started looking on the possible things outside. I left the inner self and goes out.

As a traveled along the journey of faith as a leader, I continuously grown up and was facing those challenges that drew a line towards the crowd. I experienced regret, doubt, pain, and worst, a lost of my own. VOILA! It is the real thing that should the leader experienced and made me stronger. I just simply laugh at myself when I was staring to the stars every night. STARS are my plans and dreams that were there before I had seen it.

Now, this is my story!

Laughter and Smiles - YAM and MOSH <Ate Niña and Kuya Kris>

I was amazed with called names, YAM and MOSH! It looks nice and sounds really cute!

YAM - You Are Mine

MOSH - My Only Sweet Heart

<HEHE…> When I know the meaning of the word coming from those two persons, I was smiling and was thinking about the LOVE of GOD. A love of God that gave us another amazing persons who thought that kind of words!

SMILE ^^,

YES! It’s a NO to negative thinking! (Story behind saying, “I hate myself”)”)

ONE DAY, A NIGHT, and a midst of no where!

PROBLEM: I thought that nothing happens for everything I did. I actually do every each day my best that I can. I have those training and each day, I’m always kept myself performing the best and the better to grab the word that everybody know. The word is called “JOB”.

PROCESS: I tried keeping my mask on my face! It is just to rely everything with that mask. Meaning, I kept on hiding my true feelings and keep smiling even I am not happy. I, myself, just kept on looking who was the person that I need to talk with. Help me out of the dark and raise again my TRUE self. Someone pops up! I’m on Facebook at 9:30 PM of that DAY. I had so many friends were online that night. I tried to talk to some of them and got some words that were trying to uplift me.

My ADVISER wasn’t there on Facebook. During that NIGHT, SMART had not signal yet<and it’s so grrrrr….>. I tend to send him a text message about my case but what should I do if I haven’t a signal. I can’t send any text message. He is a seminarian from a seminary @ Manila. I know he was praying for us! Thanks to him

My two valuable CLASSMATES in college. I called them, Popsy and Papi. I saw their comments that kept me thinking how it is.

My FRIENDS. They were giving some points to consider! Thanks to them!

Lately from that morning! It is just an another day since yesterday! I saw a comment that made me laugh. I reached the point that HE NEVER EVER LOSE. Thanks to you! My BEST FRIEND was there. I tried to opened up those things to him with so long message from a chat box. Suddenly, he doesn’t replied for that! And that’s another things that bothers me most. I think that he got irritated on me because I’m always sharing my thoughts NEGATIVELY with him. Reason why, he is also the one can carry me up even his own sermons and/or a simple reply such as “o sige sige”, “ang hina mo kasi”, or a JOKES that kept me up! He is my other side. PESSIMISTIC opposed by an OPTIMISTIC. Somehow, he was always giving me a sermon!

I’m missing IN ACTION! OFF to somewhere!

‎”People need you. People you love and even people you have never met are depending on you. You matter to God as well. No one else can be the person you were created to be. Do not think for a minute that you are not important; - the world needs you. God needs you. “

There are some reflections of my own when I read this passage:

• I’m “living LIFE loving”!
• God always remind me that I’m not uncertain because HE wants me to certain to all the things. Actually, I want to live as an ordinary person like others wants to be! SIMPLE! AWESOME. BUT, In bringing this, He wants me to be extraordinary who can go extra miles of serving Him
• He never ever give me any break! HE wants me to GIVE through sacrificing my own desires turns into meaningful love.
• I’m not receiving what other people had. (such as gadgets, fame, money, love ones, and etc.) BUT, I’ve never knew that HE gave it all before I wanted it! NOT gadget but FRIENDS who are in need of my help, NOT fame but KIDS who always naughty, NOT money but FAMILY who are my shelter and His LOVE, NOT love ones BUT a best friend who always give me not such advice but a SERMON! HE gave it all and everything!
• TRUE LOVE waits
• He had always a prepared PLANS for US! Even simple things are considered a trials!
• LIVE forever and EVER in HIS NAME!

oh my! Actually, I’m really having that way! Thanks to God! I should remember this!